need a rest

I'm feeling very tired today. I think I need to rest this weekend. So do Pere and Z, since they are both fighting off colds.

But my husband does have one special event planned for us tomorrow. And we _have_ to see the new Pirate's movie sometime this weekend. And tonight we are having dinner at place that serves Southern Indian cuisine, *yum* I can't wait.

But first we need to stop by the sheet music store and look for some good songs for Z to take on auditions.

I want her to sing something that everyone knows but maybe they have mostly forgotten it. Like a song from their childhood that brings back sweet and happy memories. But _not_ something they heard a dozen other girls sing that day. Most people are recommending those same tired old songs again and again. Disney songs, songs from Annie and, these days, Wicked are too too popular.

Also, even though Z can sing lots of cool songs meant for adults to sing, I think she shouldn't at an audition. At least not as her first two songs. I think she should sing something appropriate for her age (so not Grow for Me from Little Shop of Horrors like she did at her talent show).

So far we have a couple songs picked out but we need to find the sheet music, and maybe we will find something new while we are looking around there.

As far as the whole professional performing thing goes, I wonder if Z is too much of a perfectionist to really make a go of it. She sometimes breaks down crying when she can't figure something out in piano. Once when she was supposed to do improv she stood in the middle of the circle of kids much older and much bigger and panicked and started crying. That was the second time she cried in that class. The first time was when she had to play a very complicated warming-up exercise and when it got to her turn she started thinking too hard about what to do instead of "improvising" and couldn't think of anything and felt bad and started crying.

She is so hard on herself. If she gets the idea that she might "mess up" and everyone will be looking at her, well, she gets very tense and sometimes has a brain freeze. (I know that feeling)

But most of the time she loves to perform and will get right up there and sing and dance and act in front of friends, family and strangers until we are begging her to stop. She has no problem with belting out Broadway tunes in the market or getting up and stage and singing and acting in front of a crowd.

So we will see. Que sera sera.